Plastic Hearts &Paper Bags

Monday, April 30, 2007

horrible day .

walked into empty house,

headed straight to empty room

with an empty heart.

i'm giving up,

just wanna scream.

gonna hit my bed soon,

sleep till tmr afternoon.

oh ,

happy birthday steffie.

vulnerable

Y

Sunday, April 29, 2007

spending time with

brian and nat always

makes me happy.
all three of us need each

other in one way or another .

they're kind of like my salvation

from the rest of my life.

we could spend hours

on end talking rubbish,
doing things that we'd

normally not do,

laughing our heads off

at the silliest things.

nat just turned 16,

it's brian's sweet16 soon too.

can't wait for it to be my turn.

though i'm the baby

of the trio,
they've always taken

good care of me .

buttttt,

i still remember the times

when we were younger

they'd gang up and bully me.

honestly,

i don't know what i'd do

without both of them.

one emo boy and two

topshop girly twits.

weird concoction,

but we're the friggin bomb .

nat and i were there

for brian when his family

nearly tore apart.

brian and i were there for

nat when her everloving

heart was shattered by

the guy she thought was

her forever.

and both of them were there

for me through it all :

when i was at the lowest

point of my young existence,

when i overdosed myself,

when i got so darn ___ nothing

seemed to matter anymore.

that night when we crashed

at nat's place after a wild night,

i realised we all clung on to

the same thing : love.

sadly,

we were disappointed.

together ,

we drowned ourselves with good alcohol

and better company .

vulnerable

Y

Saturday, April 28, 2007

clare did this.

its supposed to be about the

PowerPuffGirls.

clare, nat and i.

blossom, buttercup &bubbles

i think its adorable .

went for a haircut today,

Serene (my cousin &also

my hairstylist) and i

played around with different

styles before cutting it the

way she wanted it .

mom highlighted her hair red!

now my hair's super short

at the back :/

anyways,

poor clare's having troubles with jared.

he's freaking out about Os

and wants to break up .

i know what it's like to

have to give up someone you

love so much.

it hurts so fucking much

i tell you .

say my name,

i just want to hear you,

so i know it's true.

you're changing me,

you're changing me .

you showed me how to live .

i'll give you my heart on a string,

i just don't wanna miss anything.

vulnerable

Y

Friday, April 27, 2007

someday, i promise i'll be gone,

&someday i might even sing this song to you,

i was crying alone tonight

&I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you.

~~so just come back we'll make it better .~~

~~better than it ever was .~~

please don't,

cause' i've found someone else

worth crying for.

well well,

i'm truely honestly seriously moving on!

yay for me :D

so yeah,

had home ec pratical exam.

i think i did pretty well.

-gasp gasp

yes audrey can bake .

i know i passed my prac,

but but but.

i failed overall cause'

i handed my coursework up late

and the bloody teacher

said she wasn't gonna mark it.

so i got a straight zero .

-gasp gasp again

vulnerable

Y

Thursday, April 26, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARE :D

I LOVE YOU CUTIE PIE!

HOPE YOU HAD FUN BESTFR {X

had chinese listening compre today.

total shitz.

went out with clare, nat &rach.

met ben and jared at tpy (:

saw BigBrotherBobby at macs .

went over to ben's place after lunch,

met his oh-so-cute grandma!

adorable old woman.

aunty cath just came back

from the States.

she dropped by to pass me

the stuff she got for my mom and i

(: sweeet shitz.

she got me Dolce&Gabbana perfume

plus AnnaSui green eye shadow

and a Cartier bracelet for mom.

BigBrotherBobby

vulnerable

Y

Saturday, April 21, 2007

maybe i am what you say :

a truant,

fuckup,

reject .

how i wish i could trade

all this pain for

booze and pills.

cause' they say big girls don't cry .

&I've got a drug dealer on speed dial

vulnerable

Y

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

your slowly shaking fingertips show that

you're scared like me,

so let's pretend we're alone .

&I know you may be scared

&I know we're unprepared.

but i dont care .

I was born to tell you i love you,

isn't that a song already?

I get a B in originality,

&it's true i can't go on without you .

your smile makes me see clearer,

if you could only see in the

mirror what i see.

&I promise I can be what you need

vulnerable

Y

Monday, April 16, 2007

hilarious, no?

MY BUTTERFLY TATTOOOOOO
[:

I'M STAYING IN IJ!

vulnerable

Y

Friday, April 13, 2007

had IJ Fiesta todaaay!

after assembly there was this

International Friendship Day

concert thingy thing.

the scholars in the school performed,

Vietnamese, Indonesian, Hong Kongers,

Malaysians, Thai &dunno what else .

super cute [:

{there was also this vietnamese scholar

who looked exactly like Miss Sharon Syde}

thennnn,

walked around with Clare &Jenn.

Jenn &I got butterfly tattoos

on our faces :D

oh,

we got heart-shaped balloons

from the super nice Arts Alive-ers.

so yeeah,

wasted our money at the

retarded "Mew Mew" place.

there was like some kind of

dance floor with a DJ

in the hall .

walked in and we were like

'WHOA SO FUCKING HAPPENING!"

when there were only ten people?

hehh,

saw Anna, Peshu &Co. dancing away.

bought IJ superstar tickets,

but Clare had to go help the sailing stall .

so it was just me and Jenn.

bored as hell we were .

this sec 1 wannabe adult won the single one,

and Trini's group won in the group section.

{I never knew trini could sing}

after Superstar,

watched (sister!)Vic's band play.

free hugs!

went for lunch with

Ash, Peshu, Gabby &Fariha .

got half-soaked in the rain,

shoes drenched and all.

my socks were squishy

bus-ed home alone,

slept all the way in the freezing bus .

yeap!

pictures another day,

look out for my tattoo

ohh

ambra wants me to blog about EP.

so here goes!

passed up our stupid

Martin Luther King Jr video

which wasn't compatible

with the fugging Imac .

so we went to another computer

lab to show Mr Chan the video.

i swear,

he's the most hilarious man on earth.

our sound clip couldnt be heard

and i kept insisting it was the

speaker problem.

but it turned out i didn't

attach the song to my thumbdrive .

Mr Chan's reaction was so funny!

i laughed until i seriously couldn't breathe.

AMBRA,

YOU HAPPY NOW ?

this has been such a long post.

it's probably my longest .

-claps

I lay my life down at Your feet,

You're the only one I need .

I turn to You &You are always there.

In troubled times it's You I seek,

I put You first,

&thats all I need.

I humble all I am,

all to you .

One way, Jesus.

You're the only one that I could live for .

vulnerable

Y

Thursday, April 05, 2007

you guys never fail to make me smile

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SEAN!

ZOMG

i'm so terribly sorry i forgot

your birthdayyyy!

haven't talked to you in ages luhh.

neeways,
this week kinda sucked .

had a really bad tiff with ____.

fuck,

tell your boyfr to piss off.

it's like Holy Week,

nat said i shouldn't curse so much .

but this issue is seriously

pissing me off,
why drag ben in anyway?

your damned boyfr and his

friends wanted to beat ben up.

what has he done?

what have i done?

i told you,

i won't judge your boyfr .

so please,

back off.

vulnerable

Y